Recently, I feel like I haven’t got everything figured out. I took some time to think, I don’t mean a few hours here and there, I’m talking over a month. I didn’t know what I was searching for. I felt lost and a little sad. But things have a way of turning themselves around…
It hasn’t come without struggles but I have took this time to gain a better perspective. It’s helped me put things into place – both mentally and physically. It’s been pretty hard. I’m feeling more positive now though.
I’ve been able to spend lots of mornings with Freddy who lights up my entire world. He has given me a different start to each day, reminding me that no matter what happens, him and his daddy are there, always.
In the last month, so much has happened. Our baby boy turned one, he’s been walking around, had his first hair cut and other exciting moments.
I’ve realised how easy it is to get caught up on life and lose track of what really matters, that not being how people see you. There’s much more to life. My focus is to be happy so that my son and partner can be happy too. And to talk, whenever something gets to me, knowing that they can do the same to me (Freddy when he’s older).
Things do get better and the future has so much to hold. Sometimes the unknown of what will be can be scary but it’s also exciting and gives you a new challenge.
Earlier this week I went to my grandma’s funeral, she sadly passed a few weeks ago. Before I was leaving, someone said to me, “Be happy”. Those words will stay with me. Two words that mean so much and actually made me think a lot.
Here’s to my new job which I start next month and knowing it’s never too late for new beginnings.